I hate this, I hate everything about this, I hate it forever. No, I don't know why for me this is the thing that breaks the world. I don't know why the thought of being watched swamps me with sick anxiety. Maybe there is no why; maybe that's just a common way for brains to go wrong. Everyone knows the word for it, after all: paranoia. It's exceedingly easy to be paranoid when everyone agrees that you are in fact being watched, but no one knows exactly how much or by whom.
Call your representative or don't or whatever. I don't want to talk about this.